And I make animations.

Speaking of self-harm, I miss the way I looked before I did it.  I really regret it, and especially regret cutting my face.  I scar so easily, and my skin was the only good thing about my looks.  My facial skin has scars now that aren't covered with make-up.

I wonder why I continue to do it, then.  When I do, I think that I'll scream and shout or feel absolutely nothing if I don't.  I hate losing my temper. 

Can keloid and hypertrophic scars be banished by surgery?  I've always hoped that when I was older I'd have enough saved to get surgery.  I can't bear the thought of having children I would have to explain my scars to.  It would be so lovely to walk in the sun with short sleeves.